Staying up way too late!

What are you doing this evening?

It’s almost 3:00am locally. I could say I was staying up to watch the Polaris Dawn liftoff. At least that would be a good excuse.

But I don’t need to justify staying up late anymore! It’s such a knee-jerk thoughtless reaction to, “Why are you awake at 3:00 am?”

Because I can be!

I’ll be going to sleep in a bit. I had started a response to another prompt. Never finished it. But there were some good ideas percolating and knocking around other ideas.

Later tonight is the (first and probably only) debate between Harris and Trump 2024. My green crystal magic 8-ball says:

If she tries and fails to land a haymaker, that could cost her. She doesn’t want to overplay her hand.

If he tries and fails to belittle her or if she can make him seem old and doddering, she’s got a chance.

If Trump manages to claim with a straight face, any kind of victory, he’ll inflate it into a complete victory. The likes of which no one has ever seen.

‘I beat her in the debate. Everyone is saying it. You’re going to tell me I lost the election after I killed her in that debate? No way!

Way.

Good night!

Hold on, let me check

Why can’t I just report how I’m feeling right now? Why do I have to take a few moments to figure it out? Are you like that? Anyway, I’ll give it a shot.

Ok, so I sat there for a few minutes. I debated internally, what do I want to type? What do I want to do? What do I want?

Let me start with a song that’s been going through my head again. Wichita Lineman by Glen Campbell:

“And I need you more than want you…And I want you for all time…”

You see, I’m lonely. I’m missing my Soulmate. I only get to see or talk to her every couple of decades. The years between can be hard to bear sometimes. Like now.

If I had any faith in God or eternity, I could rest assured that we’ll see and talk to each other again someday. I could believe in Synchronicities and destiny. I could believe in love.

I’m only human. I dwell on impossible could have been and almost was. There are no do-overs or second chances in life. If you blow it during the attempt, you may get a chance to try again. But the previous attempt(s) don’t go away. They inescapably influence any future attempts.

Since I am only human, I have to distract myself from dwelling on the past failures. And the past ecstasies. I’m going back to my computer world now. It’s interesting and challenging enough to distract me from my recurring reminiscences. Once you’ve reconnected with your soulmate, no one else will suffice. So I’ll just have to wait until the next time we meet again.

Did I answer the question? Yes, I think so.

Daily writing prompt

How are you feeling right now?

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Soulmate

Who are your current most favorite people?

I have a soulmate out there, the other half that makes me whole. I don’t have to be within reach, just within thought for me to feel their love. Their existence makes me question my assumptions about reality. A better person couldn’t be wished for.

Thank you to Whoever made you.